I am a working mom now and I like it and I hate it. I miss my girls, but I like making money and I like having adult time. I especially like using my brain and not being interrupted with screaming and juvenile demands.
The girls have adapted well and everyone seems very happy. The one thing I notice is that Brielle has a serious bond with her Nana Pam. Just like work, I love it and I hate it. I mostly love it but in my insecurities I hate it. I would have it no other way for Pam and Brielle but sometimes I feel a little jealous. It's not their fault and I should just count my blessings that they have such a wonderful caretaker that loves them so deeply.
I have that bond with Amelie that we are just super connected but sometimes I can't find the "click" moment with Brielle. Her busyness and attitude make her very complex. Although, she is 100% ME.
Since moving her to her toddler bed this weekend I am noticing that connection that I have so desired. I remember with Amelie, switching her to her toddler bed brought a sense of accomplishment and responsibility. It's like their first right of passage from baby to kid. They are so excited when you put the bed in their room but the moment you leave them there by themselves they sorta panic. They have to control themselves and at 2, that's a hard to do.
I will say that I was AMAZED at Brielle's ability to adapt. She cried a bit but honestly, she cries less now than she did in her crib. And, I get to lay with her and look into her eyes while she winds down, sings songs, and giggles. That connection for me is priceless. It was like a "finally" moment where I just got to hang out with her and comfort her and show her that all I want to do is be her mommy. I want to laugh with her, cry with her, sing with her, cuddle her, tickle her...etc.
And I want to do these things FOREVER. I sometimes mourn the baby stages, but since I have no control over it, I realize that every stage is amazing and if I mother them properly, they will always want that connection.
I love these kids so much and pray that we will always feel this connected no matter what our age. I will support their every desire and need with respect and patience.
Please...everyone...hold me to that :)
The girls have adapted well and everyone seems very happy. The one thing I notice is that Brielle has a serious bond with her Nana Pam. Just like work, I love it and I hate it. I mostly love it but in my insecurities I hate it. I would have it no other way for Pam and Brielle but sometimes I feel a little jealous. It's not their fault and I should just count my blessings that they have such a wonderful caretaker that loves them so deeply.
I have that bond with Amelie that we are just super connected but sometimes I can't find the "click" moment with Brielle. Her busyness and attitude make her very complex. Although, she is 100% ME.
Since moving her to her toddler bed this weekend I am noticing that connection that I have so desired. I remember with Amelie, switching her to her toddler bed brought a sense of accomplishment and responsibility. It's like their first right of passage from baby to kid. They are so excited when you put the bed in their room but the moment you leave them there by themselves they sorta panic. They have to control themselves and at 2, that's a hard to do.
I will say that I was AMAZED at Brielle's ability to adapt. She cried a bit but honestly, she cries less now than she did in her crib. And, I get to lay with her and look into her eyes while she winds down, sings songs, and giggles. That connection for me is priceless. It was like a "finally" moment where I just got to hang out with her and comfort her and show her that all I want to do is be her mommy. I want to laugh with her, cry with her, sing with her, cuddle her, tickle her...etc.
And I want to do these things FOREVER. I sometimes mourn the baby stages, but since I have no control over it, I realize that every stage is amazing and if I mother them properly, they will always want that connection.
I love these kids so much and pray that we will always feel this connected no matter what our age. I will support their every desire and need with respect and patience.
Please...everyone...hold me to that :)
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